Goal One...

Pay off a significant amount of debt.

{We're in this together}

I sat down with hubby to have a chat about our life long goals. We both agree that I need to be home with the babies, eventually. I went on telling him that he needs a better job and may have mentioned that I felt like he wasn't doing anything to move this family forward. I cried, then he talked.

I always get ahead of myself, it's my gemini personality. When I want something, I want it now. I wake up in the morning and decide it's a good day to go for a hike, we go. I need change and spontaneity in my life a little more than the average person, I think. So when I dropped the bomb on hubby and he so calmly reassured me that our current goal was to be paying off debt, I immediatley felt ashamed. I cried some more and told him that I was sorry and that it was my "other" personality coming out. 

This isn't to say that I don't think he needs a different job, he truly does. For the sake of his sanity and well being he needs to be doing something he enjoys. So I agreed with hubby and firmly believe that our first task at hand is to be paying extra money to all of our bills.

A couple years back we were put in a really crappy situation. We were living with a roommate who left us high and dry in the middle of the lease. Tony and I tried to sublet the house and considered getting other roommates but in the end we were stuck with the full amount of rent each month. That said we ONLY had money each month for the rent which meant everything else on credit cards, and well you know where that leads. We are still trying to catch up, obviously.

GOAL ONE: PAY OFF A GOOD CHUNK OF DEBT!!!

AAAAAND........... GO

TORN

There should be no question about where I want to be, and really there isn't. I want to be at home with Amelia. But there is the side of me that loves to be in the classroom.

I'm torn. I have to convince myself everyday that it's necessary for me to be working, to contribute to supporting our family.

  

She turns one in a month and my goal (as of now) is to be a permanent stay at home mom by the time she is three, if not before.

Goals need to be set, both short and long term. Plans need to be set in action.

Ready, set, go!

11 Months

Seriously? SERIOUSLY? She's almost a year old??? 

Where has the time gone? My mind is blown when I think back on when Amelia was born and how it seems to have been just yesterday. It makes my emotions swell just a little to think she is growing this quickly.

Just a couple weeks ago she started crawling and now she's a busy little bee. She crawls as fast as she can, falling over herself to get somewhere. She pulls herself up on anything she can get a hold of. She's a mover and a shaker!

Well the planning for her first birthday shall commence!